When Life Becomes Even More Difficult
This post will be a little different than previous ones, so bear with me. I missed posting last week due to my health. Sorry about that, but it couldn’t be helped. I will be honest with you, it has been a bit of a struggle to say the least.
The past two weeks have been literally brutal for me; physically and mentally. This exhaustion and pain I have been dealing with, I swear doubled in strength and intensity. I even had to cancel an appointment that I have waited a year for. Another day I almost gave up and stayed in bed. For anyone who knows me; knows that is not who I am; or at least was. (for those of you who are bedridden this is in no way meant to be demeaning)
To top it off, my doctor informs me that with the results of all the tests she’s done and eliminating other things, she has determined that this exhaustion is due to an increase in my Chronic Fatigue. She also said since this increase has gone on for this length of time without lessening, it may be the new level of normal for me. Not the answer I was hoping for, believe me.
To say I wasn’t disappointed would be a lie. I was hoping something would be found that could be fixed, worked with or improved upon at least. Not, that I would have to adjust and accept that things may not go back to what they were.
Honestly it has been a struggle to stay joyful. I am grateful to God for the life I have, I won’t let myself whine. I know that He has a plan and a purpose for me. I know that in the long run His will is best for me. I just need time to adjust. Being in thick of symptoms doesn’t help. So I ask for your prayers and hope that you will lift me up to the Lord, ask that the adjusting I need to do, more than just mentally or spiritually, would at least go semi-smoothly. There are things physically that will need changing in my life.
So, that all having been said, I want to share with you something that has been in my possession for many years. I came across it again this week. It may be familiar to some of you. I cannot even remember how I found it or from where. The prayer came with no author listed. I have done an online search by title and through the opening line and didn’t find any matches.
Every time I come across it, it has ministered to me. I love how God works things; just like this, that whenever I do come across it, I have always needed its words. It is a simple prayer, but speaks deeply to me and I hope to you.
A Prayer For The Long Stretch
O God, in Whom I live, move and have my being,
I’m right in the middle of it.
The world right now seems to be asking
more than I may be able to give.
I am tired to the core, nervous and stressed;
afraid of not doing enough, or failing in my own eyes.
I need You now, even if I can’t think to ask,
or don’t seem to have the time for You.
God, please come, and create me anew, once again,
You, Who are the source of light and wisdom.
Guide me at the beginning of what I must do,
direct my progress, and bring it to its end.
Help me to see that You are always near me,
though I may not see You, or may lose hope.
Give me Your peace that not even this
demanding world can take away.
Let me not be so cautious,
but be courageous in what I do,
knowing I am acceptable to You, and You are enough.
When I have finished what I must do,
teach me to give all into Your care;
leaving it to Your power and love.
Until next time. God bless.
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