The Lord is near to all who call upon Him,
To all who call upon Him in truth
I have found that I learn a lot from my own posts, so this one may turn out to be more for myself than for you. The past while I have been going through one thing after another and in each situation I found myself being forced to trust God more and more. It has not been easy. God has been stretching me and growing me in my faith and trust in Him, but I struggled every step of the way. It even affected my health as I stressed over things. I don’t think I have ever struggled/doubted and hoped so much; all at the same time before.
Commit your way to the Lord,
Trust also in Him,
And He shall bring it to pass.
My past is full of broken trust and disappointments which led me to feelings of unworthiness and being used, taken advantage of. I was always wanting to fit in and be accepted for myself, but it rarely happened. I learned to do for myself rather than to depend on others. I came to expect to be disappointed as time and time again I would open myself up to hope that this time would be different, but it wasn’t.
You will keep him in perfect peace,
Whose mind is stayed on You,
Because he trusts in You.
All of that has made it difficult to trust God. I ended up having a hard time with it. I know His word is true. I believe He can do anything and everything. I know He is a God of miracles. I know He loves me. I just have trouble trusting He will do things for me.
He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High
Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the Lord,
“He is my refuge and my fortress;
My God, in Him I will trust.”
I have no problem helping others understand trust and faith in God, but when it comes to me, doubts, pain, and rejection from my past make me hesitate every time it comes for me to trust.
Then He who sat on the throne said, “Behold, I make all things new.” And He said to me, “Write, for these words are true and faithful.”
I know He can. I just have a hard time believing He will for me. So where does that leave me? Taking baby steps. Literally. Each step has been taken with trepidation. It has been extremely difficult. I so want to trust God fully. But there is the person inside me from my past worrying whether I can trust Him, whether He will come through.
Oh, how great is Your goodness,
Which You have laid up for those who fear You,
Which You have prepared for those who trust in You
In the presence of the sons of men!
I know every time He confirms His word, it helps me onto the next step, and I feel like I am gaining ground trusting Him. It is just such a hard process.
“Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me.”
I shared this with all of you because I believe I am not the only one with trust issues that have spilled over into our relationship with God. I wanted to let these others know that they are not alone and also let them know that through working at it, our belief and trust in God, our Father, can grow.
For to this end we both labor and suffer reproach, because we trust in the living God, who is the Savior of all men, especially of those who believe.
1 Timothy 4:10
It may be like me, through baby steps, but if we keep holding onto Him, believing, our trust will increase. Each and every time He shows us He is trustworthy we will grow. We may have our faith stretched to accept that He knows best when we ourselves don’t understand His ways, but if we remain open to the working of the Holy Spirit, our spirit will respond and trust God more.
He who heeds the word wisely will find good,
And whoever trusts in the Lord, happy is he.
It’s hard because we are not just fighting our past. We are fighting the enemy who keeps bringing those times up to us. He wants us to stay defeated. He would love to brag to God about how he is able to keep believers from trusting in their God. So every time we encounter another situation needing trust in God, we need to make sure we bind the enemy from interfering and influencing us. We need to be constantly reminding ourselves of God’s trustworthiness. We need to hold on, and keep holding on; no matter how long things take.
Every word of God is pure;
He is a shield to those who put their trust in Him.
I have to admit that at times these past few weeks, I thought I was going to lose it. Between worry, fear and the enemy, man it was hard. But God came through and I survived. I wish I could be confident and say I won’t ever be like that again, but God may have that for me, and I don’t know how I will be until it happens. I hope stronger. Only He knows and if I encounter that again, all I can do is pray, trust; try to stay strong and hold on.
Now this is the confidence that we have in Him, that if we ask anything according to His will,
He hears us. And if we know that He hears us, whatever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we have asked of Him.
1 John 5:14-15
The verses I used in this post were chosen because they are very specific in dealing with trust. These are some that we should often repeat to ourselves and even commit them to memory. I read through countless lists of trust verses; ending up choosing these specific ones. I hope they aid you in becoming stronger in the area of trusting God. I know I am going to be working on committing them to memory for myself.
“Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord,
And whose hope is the Lord.
For he shall be like a tree planted by the waters,
Which spreads out its roots by the river,
And will not fear when heat comes;
But its leaf will be green,
Until next time, God bless.
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