Starting Anew

Cozy winter morning breakfast in bed still life scene. Steaming cup of hot coffee, tea standing near window. Christmas concept. Pillows, Pine cones and fir tree branch on wool plaid. 

This is going to be a more relaxed post than usual. It’s hard enough for me to sit here and write without trying to think about how I can teach something as I share. It has been a while since I have been writing. Ideas would come and go as the ever-present exhaustion drained my brain of any hope of writing. Just the thought of it was too much. Many times the pain was the barrier. I just couldn’t do it. I wasn’t functioning enough to take care of myself let alone write.

I went through a lot, health-wise last year. A lot of tests, procedures and physical/occupational therapy. Everything from nerve conduction studies to a period of time dealing with possible heart issues, to planning another back surgery. This was on top of my everyday issues. Not fun. I am hoping that this year will be a bit kinder to my body, even though I will be going through back surgery and recovery this spring and summer.

I can say that through it all I have drawn closer to God. He was my anchor, my rock. I knew He was there even through times of being silent. He taught me that I need to trust Him even when I don’t understand the why’s, when’s and how’s. At times I about went crazy as everything around me seemed about to explode, so much going on at once. I did make it through.

Those who trust in the Lord Are like Mount Zion, Which cannot be moved but abides forever.

Psalm 125:1

I am enjoying my time in God’s word. As I read I would see something new, even though I had read it many times before. I love gaining new insight. It reminds me of how God’s word is living; always fulfilling the exact need at the right time. I love how God works that way.

Many people have been believers for years but have never read the bible through once. I can’t understand that. It would be like getting married, but never listening to your spouse, to find out what they have to say. To never learn more about them that would create a lasting relationship with them. As believers, we should have a hunger for God and His word.

Prayer has become more of a priority. I am involved in a few prayer groups on Facebook and when I read the requests of those people, I am reminded that there are so many worse off than myself. It makes my problems seem light in comparison.

Because of those requests, and others I see on Facebook, and in the news, from family and friends, my prayer life is deepening; changing. I am beginning the process of redoing my prayer journal. Finding ways to make more room; to pray for more things and people, yet stay efficient. Keeping it simple and direct as much as I can. People, you can never spend enough time in prayer. There are so many needs out there. So much pain and heartache.

Oh, send out Your light and Your truth! Let them lead me; Let them bring me to Your holy hill And to Your tabernacle.

Psalm 43:3

We are in the heart of winter, yet here in Montana, it has been kind of mild. The high mountains have been getting tons of snow; but where I am in the lower mountains, we are behind in our snow amounts. Normally we average four to five feet here.

The storms come through sporadically, giving us a few inches here and there. Right now we have just over a foot of snow on the ground. Much has settled as we have received more than that. I’m sorry. I love a lot of snow and am a bit disappointed this year. Even our temps have been milder.

I try to walk every day and have made a path of sorts to walk on. It goes around my outer yard and while I walk it I sing to God. It feels good to do it while I am outside in His creation. I’m even beginning to lose some weight which I really need to do. Some days I can’t walk, but as soon as I am able I get back out there.

Re-reading this post so far it looks more like a letter than a post. I hope you don’t mind. I just wanted to reconnect and share a few things. I am hoping that I will be able to get back to writing more frequently. Maybe not weekly, we’ll see what my health will allow.

Hoping and praying you’re all doing good.

He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.

Psalm 91:1

Until next time, God bless.

Brenda

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